Why We Relay

Hello Friends,

I know it has been some time since I last posted a blog, for that I'm truly sorry. I will try to improve it that area. I have some material that was written just after Danene passed, but has just been too hard to read it but I need to get it out there. But this time I am writing because this weekend our family if doing something very close to our hearts just as it was to Danene's. Below you will find what we have posted on our Relay for Life Lodi CA page. Please take the time to read it and if you’re compelled join us as we share our life's and hope with others that have been affected by cancer. If you would like to donate copy the link, paste it in your address bar, scroll down the page and pick the family member you would like to donate too. Thank you all and you should hear from me soon with an update on our family.

http://main.acsevents.org/site/TR?pg=team&fr_id=31306&team_id=861939

Why we Relay,

Let me tell you the story about "A Family That Believes" it all started on a day in September 2008 when we got a call from the Doctor confirming that my wife had cancer. We both have been impacted by cancer in our lives with other family members and friends who had cancer and beat it or scrummed to it. But this was much different, my wife of 21 years and mom of 3 and a 45-year old healthy woman was not sub post to get kidney cancer. But it happens just the same and this was the road that we must travel. After that first night of crying ourselves to sleep we chose to fight and believe that we could beat it even after being told that she only would have about a 5% chance of beating it completely, and from that point I called her my 5%er. God did heal her, by rewarding her with everlasting life in Heaven on January 31, 2010.

We both had been involved with Relay for Life for a number of years, honoring and in memory of family and friends and in 2008 when Danene was walking we didn't know it at the time but this indiscriminate disease was raging in her body. And the year after that she walked as a survivor while taking chemo and her feet on fire from the medication but yet she would walk, but not for her. For the 3 years before she walked from 4-6am praying for all the people she knew that have been affected and even those she didn't know, because that was the type of person she was. Last year I picked up her baton and walked during that time slot and praying for all of the people that have been impacted because it was my turn.

We both always hope and prayed for her to be healed here on earth, but that was not God's will, He chose to heal her in Heaven, and that is where our "Belief" part kicks in. My family started walked together in 2004 for the first time and with each passing year it has taken on more meaning not with just hope of finding a cure. But by example my family and I can be by providing the everlasting Hope that only can given when a person has a Relationship with Christ as we have. So please join me and my team "A Family That Believes" in raising some funds for the American Cancer Society and along the way maybe you too can share the Joy and Peace that only can be found in a Relationship with the one and only true Living God and His Son Jesus Christ. Because just because a chapter has been closed with the passing of a loving wife, mom, daughter, friend, cousin and sister, doesn't mean the story is finished because we all can make a difference in others because of this story that God is writing through us. So join me as we raise some funds to help provide Hope through the American Cancer Society and maybe you can in the process share your story of Hope with someone that needs to hear it. Join "A Family That Believes" just as my family and friends have, and walk with us.

Danene's partner in life, Matt, along our kids, Zac, Regan, and Meghan.

A Week Of Bittersweet

            This week has been bittersweet for me. I celebrated twenty-five years of sobriety, which is a high point. The bitter part is not having my wife here to share it with me; she played such a vital roll in this milestone.  While sobriety is a very positive part of my life, it’s only one chapter of this book called life.  I owe it all to my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I was arrested and sitting in a jail cell on November 16, 1985, surrounded by 40 plus people, but at the same time I was totally alone.  God met me where I was and picked me up. At that point I was a mid-stage alcoholic and had been drinking non-stop for six months (from the time I got up in the morning until I went to bed). God released me from the need to drink for about 3-4 weeks which gave me a chance to regain my bearings.  I had a chance to see that all the dreams I had for my life were slipping through my fingers because of my addictions. While it took about four months to recommit my life to Christ, it was at that time I realized that Jesus was and is the friend I need.

            When I started to live out Matthew 6:33 in my life, God started giving me some of the things I had hoped for as a young man.  And BAM there was Danene.  She soon became my best friend and then my wife (all parts of God’s plan). We were married on August 8, 1987, and the honeymoon began.  However, we were dealt some tough stuff that we had to deal with. Most of which was sin and a lifestyle that brought so much crap (I could think of other words to use, but that would just not be right) into our partnership. I was convicted over and over and haunted by my past.  As a twenty-five year-old I thought I knew so much, but I was so wrong. I felt that even though I was dealing with my addictions, I needed to learn more about God’s love for me so that I would have the ability to love my mate. When I asked my father-in–law, Roger, for Danene’s hand in marriage, I said all the right things. But he said something that I have never forgotten.  He said, “Take care and provide for her spiritual needs.” While I thought I knew what he meant, I didn’t know to what extent that would take me.

            For you that know me well, you know that I listen to Christian music or conservative talk radio most of the time during my road trips. My kids can tell you which song gets to my heart these days.  The song “Lead Me” by Sanctus Real is the one that can just rip it out of my chest and let me see it beating.  I know that is graphic statement, but I want you to get what I talking about. After about two years of marriage, Danene came to me crying and asking me to step up and be the man she needed me to be. Not just that guy that was bringing home the bacon and supplying her earthly needs. So twenty-one years ago she could have written the lyrics to first verse of “Lead Me”.  This is what she ask for in a round about way…

            I look around and see my wonderful life

Almost perfect from the outside

In picture frames I see my beautiful wife

Always smiling

But on the inside, I can hear her saying...

“Lead me with strong hands

Stand up when I can't

Don't leave me hungry for love

Chasing dreams, what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight

That I'm still the love of your life

I know we call this our home

But I still feel alone”

That was my wake up call, and it was my next step in my walk with Christ. I started to ask God to teach me how to love His way. I was warped with a worldly view, based on feeling and lust. I made a stand in my life to make some real changes because even thought I was broken, I had not given everything to Christ. There were those areas that we never talk about to others (probably because we are worried what people will think about us).  At a men’s retreat with some of my church brothers I took that step and because I confessed my sin, I was able to forgive myself, and this was another step in growth. I was making God’s will be walked out in my life. I was starting to understand what Roger asked of me. While this didn’t happen overnight, over the next five years before children, I had the time I needed to start to develop this in my life.

            By no means am I perfect, I’m not even close. I’m just a guy that has learned some lessons in this thing we call life. I’m still learning, and there are things that I have just recently learned that were taught to me by Danene. She was willing to be used by God and do whatever He asked, even to her death. Our Pastor Mark talked about “Why Not Me?” last week.  For you that attend Bethel and were there you know what I mean. We can question God in our lives as stuff happens; we can ask, “Why Me?” I think I can let you all in on a truth, this life is not about you or me; it’s about God. He brings all things together for His glory. I just told my daughter, Meghan, this morning that God knows that we can handle this in our lives so that we can be used to glorify God in the story that He wants to write. Danene’s story is not completely written because she died. Her legacy is living on in all of those that knew her.  It’s being written in my life and the lives of our children, relatives, and all those who have come in contact with her or her story.

            On the day that Danene died, my dad and dad-in-law came to the hospital to see how I was doing and get me back home. My dad drove himself to my house, and I asked Roger to ride with me. The first thing I asked him was, “Roger, did I do what you asked me to do, when I asked for Danene’s hand in marriage?”  A true blessing was then delivered to me with his words, “Yes, Matt, you did.” Thank you, Roger and Velma, for letting me have your daughter to be my wife.  Guys love your wife as God loved His church willing to give his only Son that we might have everlasting life. That’s a tall order, but first you need to know God in order to truly understand love.

            Now I’m starting on other chapters in my life that I’m choosing to allow God to help me write. It’s onward to the rest of the song, which is about being a dad…

I see their faces, look in their innocent eyes

They're just children from the outside

I'm working hard, I tell myself they'll be fine

They're independent

But on the inside, I can hear them saying...

“Lead me with strong hands

Stand up when I can't

Don't leave me hungry for love

Chasing dreams, but what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight

That I'm still the love of your life

I know we call this our home

But I still feel alone”

So Father, give me the strength

To be everything I'm called to be

Oh, Father, show me the way

To lead them

Won't You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands

To stand up when they can't

Don't want to leave them hungry for love,

Chasing things that I could give up

I'll show them I'm willing to fight

And give them the best of my life

So we can call this our home

Lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

Father, lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

            Please join with me and ask the Father to lead us through this thing we call life.

If you feel led, please pray for me to be the dad I need to be, but even more so the spiritual dad that I should be. But don’t do it until you have prayed for your spouse and family.

Danene’s Partner In Life, Matt

Some good advice from a good friend.

Aloha, and sorry all for being delayed in writing a blog. I haven't had much time lately and I just haven't been able to put the words together. But today it hit me so here I am, sharing some old stuff and some new.

Back in 1977 my parents brought our family to Hawaii, it was their first time back to the Islands since they lived there in 1955(my father was stationed here for 2 1/2 years while serving in the Marine Corps) he has always said it was their honeymoon. During the trip they keep saying how different everything was, and as a kid I didn't give it much thought. On one of the last days of that 1977 trip my mom found the Aloha Tower, and bam the trip was complete for them. They could go home happy.

I am standing in the same shoes, but with a few differences. This time it was me that has been saying so many things have changed about the Kona Coastline since Danene and I honeymooned here 23 years ago. The biggest thing is She is not here to share this trip with me (in body), although She is here in spirit and in my heart. Today I went through the lobby of the hotel we stayed in. Most of the hotel and it's grounds had not changed. The view from the lobby, the same, and the beach where we had rooms-service deliver our dinner so we could watch the sunset while eating was the same as well. Great memories for me, but it is a bitter-sweet. God Is Good All The Time, and my story is not done being written. God is going to be involved with writing it, as I serve His will for my life, He will complete the ending for His Glory. Please join me as I make His will my will, and choose to serve not be served. If you know Christ Jesus as your Lord and Savior, don't keep him to yourself, freely share Him with others. Let God write your story as He has written Danene's life story and in the process of writing mine. While I will not have a bam moment, I will go home happy because of what God has done for me.

A very good friend told me just before going on vacation "Matt...I know that you been having a hard time writing lately, you just need to share some of the stuff you have written in the past". Thanks Tim, I think you are right. I wrote this about a year and 4 days ago and I feel it appropriate to share again. Take it from someone that is allowing God to fill the void of a lost spouse. Love the one that God gives you...They are a gift from God. Build memories everyday by loving them like Christ love the Church. Trust me Jesus is a hard act to follow but He is the perfect example to follow and if you allow Him to guide you through that process. I love all of you that have been holding my family up in prayer, and I'm asking God to blessings to be apon you. Danene's Partner In Life, Matt

Hey all,

Over the past couple of days I have been just overwhelmed with something I need to share. As most of you know, a year ago Danene had what we know as life saving surgery to remove her left kidney. During the recovery process in the hospital something happened to our relationship. There were three nights in a row that I stayed the night to get her through the painful recovery from the surgery. There were a lot of sleepless moments. But in the morning about 4:00-4:30 the great nursing staff would start to make their rounds to get ready for the doctors 6 am rounds. This proved to be some of the best times that we have ever had together.

As we would wake, we would start to talk, sharing life together and just talking about everything, and we would pray together. During this time in the hospital there was more healing taking place than just in Danene’s body. God was working on our relationship with each other as well as our relationship with him. “Husbands love your wife as Christ loves the church” Ephesians 5:25. I was not doing my job very well, and it’s something I have to work at everyday. God helps me with this process daily but only when I ask Him and allow Him to have control over my life. God has given us the second greatest gift He could give us: our wife; the greatest gift is His Son, Jesus. Guys, if you keep the relationship right with Jesus, He will help you keep your relationship right with your wife. You all just need to be thankful for the gift that God the Father has given us. Love the wife that completes you, cares for you, feeds you, cares for your kids, and loves you in spite of all of your shortcomings. Providing for her needs is just not going to work and bringing home the bacon.

Each morning when I wake it brings me joy to see my wife breathing, sleeping, and recovering from yet another day of meds. I just have to stop and give thinks for this gift that God has given. I will get on my knees before God and give Him the praise and thanks that He deserves. This past year has brought us through a lot of ups and downs as Danene battles with this wretched disease. We continue to serve God and we stand on the promise that “Everything is possible for him who believes in Christ Jesus” Mark 9:23. Some of you ask us “what can we do for you guys?” I would say to you to love your wife/husband so that you can be a good witness to your kids, family, and the world around you. Share the love Jesus showed us when he died on the cross to those around you and fulfill the great commission.

Danene and I will not question why it has come to pass that she got cancer. We will only hope that God will be glorified with our walk with Him through this process. Please continue to pray for us and for Danene’s healing, but only after you have prayed for your spouse.

In God’s Love, we are thankful for you all,
Matt (Danene’s husband and partner in life).

It's a Season of Firsts.

It’s a Season of Firsts.

           

Well it’s been six months since Danene went to spend her life everlasting with our Lord Jesus Christ, and our Almighty God the Father. But for the Edalgo’s it has been a series of firsts. While I try not to make things about me, there are some things you all need to be aware of.  Hold on to the memories that you have and make memories with your loved ones daily.  It will help you when there is a loss. I have found that if I have too much time on my hands, it takes its toll on me.  I learned this the hard way when we took our first family vacation.  I rented a large beach house south of Aptos, and just south of the little town of La Selva.  My parents and in-laws started renting a condo together back when I was in the 6^th grade and Danene was in 5^th.  Our families continued to vacation together for 28+ years.  All of us watched our families grow, and out of those vacations there came two marriages. Danene and I were the first, and then my oldest nephew Jeremy and his wife Alisha married.  She was a product of one of the many that met together with our families during the 4^th of July. With their union, Danene and I enjoyed becoming a Great Aunt and I the Greatest Uncle. Jeremy and Alisha’s daughter, Madison, is going to be two. Wow. Our families have so many wonderful memories from those vacations, and I will cherish them for as long as God allows me to be here. So for me I'm going to watch just how much free time I have while on vacations, and when we do go, we will be on the go. There will not be much lounging time for me during the future vacations. Definitely there will be no more walks on the beach alone. 

            But back to the firsts, there have been so many that I made a list.  First day of work and not getting a phone call from my wife, first vacation without Danene (4^th of July), first trip to Phil’s Fish Market at Moss Landing, first trip to the Santa Cruz Boardwalk, first summer break, first tea party, first fire on the beach, first family crisis without Danene to smooth it out, first shopping trip for a bra (sorry Meghan), first parent conferences at school, first back-to-school night for Meghan, first trip to high school to make the agreements for Zac’s classes, first day of school (that was a tough one), first fishing trip, first soccer game for Meghan, first baseball game for Regan and I, first badminton game for Zac, first last day of school and start of summer break, first doctor appointments, first dentist appointments, first trip to church camp for Zac, first planting of the garden, first tomato from the garden (Danene’s favorite), first hamburger using that tomato (a tradition), first batch of spaghetti sauce with the bounty from our garden, first time of not getting to celebrate Danene’s birthday, first Valentine’s Day, first spring break, first Easter Sunday, first pool/baseball party at our house, first loss of a tooth, first time for me to hire a baby sitter and to determine how much to pay her, first time for filling out all the paperwork for the first day of school (it took 2 hours), first piano lesson for Meghan,  first song that Meghan wrote for the piano, first varsity letter for Zac in badminton, first progress reports from school, first reports cards, first Mother’s Day, first Fathers Day, first day of drivers training for Zac, first day of letting Zac drive with his permit (I’m still sweating from that one), first Relay For Life, first night of sleep without Danene (a hard one for us all), first time I had to fill out all of the graduation cards and buy the gifts (thanks for gift cards at Safeway), first shopping list, first menu for the week, first time get ink out of a shirt, first time planning a vacation (ha, I still have Danene’s notes), first time paying all of the bills, first trip to Danene’s school and her not being there in her chair, my first birthday without her, and soon it will be kids first birthdays, Thanksgiving, and Christmas.  One of the toughest I face will be my first wedding anniversary without Danene on August 8^th.  It would have been our 23^rd anniversary.

            As you can tell there have been a lot of firsts, and there will be many more to come.  But there will always be firsts in our lives, and some of those will change us forever.  God can be what changes our life the most, but don’t wait to make that happen.  God is just waiting on YOU.  “For God so love the world the he gave his one and only Son (A First), that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” John 3: 16. “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” Matthew 6: 33.  Please don’t take this Scripture out of context as so many of us have.  “We love, because he first loved us.” 1 John 4: 19. “Jesus replied:  ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and all your soul and all your mind.’  This is the first and greatest commandment.” Matthew 22: 37, 38. “I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End.” Revelation22: 13.

For those of us that know Jesus as our Lord and Savior, God has given this Scripture for us to do. “And the gospel must first be preached to all the nations.” Mark 13: 10. Please read all of Mark 13 (I read it in the NIV version), because the time is at hand, and share what you have with others so that they can experience a FIRST in their life.  Please, don’t put it off.  Today, be willing to be used by God for His purpose and His will.  Make the choice to serve the Almighty God.  One thing I’m sure of is this: If we let God steer our car (life), although road maybe rough, along the way He will grow us to be the person we need to be.  He will get us to the everlasting destination as he did with my loving wife, Danene.  However, if God is only our co-pilot, get ready to crash.   Fortunately, He will always be there to pick-up the pieces.  Join me and let God light our pathway as we follow after Him who sits on the throne, and we can then handle any of the FIRSTS that may come our way.

Danene’s partner in life, Matt.

Father's Day 2010

Dear Family and Friends,

 It’s Father’s Day and my heart has gone out to my father-in-law Roger who did not get a hug from his only daughter. While I know that he believes just as I do that Danene is completely healed and with our Heavenly Father, there is still pain. In church this morning I gave him a big hug and thanked him for the card he sent me for father’s day, we both feel the lost of our dearest Danene. Tonight while the kids and I enjoyed a dinner that was a favorite of Danene’s and we where enjoying the Christian music in the background, and Zac said, “We need to do more of this”. He was talking about family time. With the schedule we have had there has not been much time together, with kids going here and there to help a single dad out I’m trying to work full time, and do the work of a great wife and perfect planner, some times just not enough time in the day. Anybody out there willing to vote for 28-hour days, so that I can know that 8 hours of sleep a night is like, all in support say I, “NO, bummer L.

With the summer in full swing, we all need to remember to stop and enjoy each other. Life just seams to go by so fast, and then we say where did time go. I’m going to challenge you all to stop and talk to your neighbors when you see them, ask them how they are doing and then stop and listen to what they have to say. Invite the people that you have wanted to have over (for the last two years) and do it. Stretch your self a little, who cares if your house is just a little dirty. DO IT ANYWAYS. I’m in the process of having my roof replaced and things are a mess, and I had the baseball team over for a year-end party and then two days later another family came over and I had a BBQ. Our kids swam, and we the adults talked with no electronics, TV, or anything to distract us. It was a great time. This was the first time I had people over that where not family (I stretched myself and didn’t break) Please don’t wait for that special time to take place because that may never happen, do let life pass you by.

Two weeks ago My Family and I form a Relay for Life team for the Lodi event. It came together in the last minutes on the Friday before the event. Time had run out because of being so busy, God knew my heart to have a team of my own and with the help of some new friends it came to pass. Our Team is “A FAMILY THAT BELIEVES” which I felt is fitting. It was my birthday and I couldn’t think of a better way to spend it, and it was fitting because of this years theme “Celebrate More Birthdays” again I think that was a God Thing. We had some one walking for just about all 24-hours of the event, Zac did like 70 laps (and stayed all night), and Meghan did over 40 (about 8-miles). Another Friend Kevin walked for 11:30-4:00 and did 70+ laps. I walked between 4-6am (the time Danene’s had walked the last 3-years). And when the sun came up I just stopped and prayed for all the people I know that are battling cancer, and those that are caring for those people. If you would like to make a donation to “Relay Of Life Lodi” and our team follow the link to this site. http://main.acsevents.org/site/TR/RelayForLife/RFLFY10CA?team_id=752932&pg=team&fr_id=20443

We will be walking in next year’s event, I have already signed up for it. So talk to me if you would like to be apart of “A FAMILY THAT BELIEVES” as we raise funs for the American Cancer Society.

Lastly our family had the honor of having a story written about us. While it story was about us, I want people to know that it is about our faith in God that helps us endure. Yes it talks about us, I want you all to know that it’s about Christ Jesus Who Strengthens Me and I’m nothing without Him, I’m just a man. Without relationship with my Lord Jesus I would not be who I am, He too can make you complete. If you have a chance please read the article written by my one of my new friends, Jo Ann. She did a great job and I believe she was use by God to give people HOPE when times are tough. Please click on the link or paste it into your address bar and give it a read. http://www.recordnet.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20100620/A_LIFE/6200310 . Have the tissues ready, I went through 8-10 of them.

So in closing please take the time to build those relationships that make life flow smoothly. But please do it in this order, God, Your Spouse, Your Kids, Your Family, And Your Friends and Neighbors. If you get things right with God and live in His will and because you have a relationship with Him, He can use you to make a difference in all of the relationships you have. Don’t get caught up in your own little life, let God live life through you, make life about God. Trust me, the blessing God will give you is real!!!

Love you all.

Danene’s Partner In Life, Matt

Enduring

Well, friends and family, it has been a while since I have made a posting.   My goal is to complete one blog entry a month.  So here it goes.

             The Edalgos are enduring.   The kids have finish school and are on summer break.  This Tuesday, June 1, is going to be a big day for the Edalgos.  Brookside School is having a Memorial to honor Danene.  It takes place at 3:20, at 2962 Brookside Road, Stockton.   The Memorial is open to the public, and both Meghan and I will be speaking. Come out and see our family. We hope to see you all there.   The second grade classes will be planting a tree in Danene’s honor as well.

            It has been four months since Danene went to be with the Lord God Almighty, and I’m sure she is having a great time.  But for us on earth, life is moving forward, and my job is just trying to keep up with the kids.  Sometimes I wish there were thirty hours in a day.  I’m back working full-time (4-days a week), and the household seems to run well.  God has put a masterful plan together to make this transition happen.   Yes, God Is Good All The Time.  For me I miss Danene everyday but I don’t have much time to think about her with all of the activities this family is doing all of the time. That’s probably God’s plan as well.

             Meghan completed 5^th grade, and with the help of family and close friends she completed her “State Report and Project” with a perfect 165 points out of 165 possible points. I think she was the only one to get that score.  Meghan has started piano lessons, and is flying through the first book, often completing 2-3 lessons a week.  I have so much fun when she plays a song and sings along.  Her instructor said, “It’s been a long time since she had a chance to teach someone that is such a quick learner.”  Meghan has a very good ear for music, and I can see her as a praise leader in 4-5 years; she has a real passion for music.  This summer Meghan will begin participating in club soccer.

            Regan completed the 7^th grade.  He had to work really hard.   We had him in several AP classes, but in hindsight we should have had him in regular classes.  However, he did very well; he even made Honor Roll one quarter.  But the high point for him was the first baseball game of the year.  On his second at-bat of the game, the bases were loaded, and he hit a shot down the third-base side to clear the bases with a stand-up double.  It was a very proud moment for this dad and his head coach (ME).   When he walk up to me after the hit I said, “Mom would be so proud of you.” When he came off the field he looked at me and said, “Dad, I did that one for Mom.” Yes, I had to walk away; I was a mess.  Regan is leading the team with RBIs, and has played every inning mostly as catcher.  Most importantly, Regan is just having fun.

            Zac is just doing great; he has grown up so much. Danene would be so proud of him. He has had only one setback.   Just last week he broke his nose again for the third time. He though he could box with his buddies (while wearing his facemask). One of Zac’s buddies sucker-punched him because he had the upper hand against the other.  He made Honor Roll, 3.0+ all four quarters.   He never missed a day of school all year.  He loves high school. This past spring he played badminton and made it to JV-1.  On the day of the league tournament, he was called up to Varsity.  He got his Varsity Letter in his freshman year.  This month Zac starts Driver’s Training and will get his permit.   If you’re in Lodi or Woodbridge nowhere may be safe.

            All in all the Edalgos are enduring, but we are missing Danene everyday.  However, with God’s helper, the Holy Spirit, we endure the tough times. Mother’s Day was toughest for me.  I just kept thinking that the kids need to have a mom.  Then I was reminded of the following Scripture. Psalm 68: 3-5. (3) But may the righteous be glad and rejoice before God: may they be happy and joyful. (4) Sing to God, sing praise to his name, extol him who rides on the clouds—his name is the Lord— and rejoice before him. (5) A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in his holy dwelling.

God is doing that for this family; we are enduring, but it’s because we are choosing to make our lives about serving God no matter where it takes us. The Edalgos will remain in his service and move forward serving the Great I AM, God Almighty and His Son Jesus Christ.

Danene’s Partner In Life, Matt.

The Dream

Hello Friends and Family,

I have had a very tough time over the past ten days or so.  It started with God placing on my heart to do some writing for the blog because writing provides me healing along the way.   It started okay, but I was all over the map with emotion and pain.  I began week ago last Saturday night at 11:00 and didn’t stop writing until about 4:00 the next morning.  I wrote a lot of good stuff, but there is more to write to complete that series of blogs.  However, that was only the beginning of the tough time.

About a year to eighteen months before Danene was diagnosed with kidney cancer, her second cousin, Sharon, was also diagnosed with kidney cancer.   Sharon’s fight with this retched disease has taken a different path from that of Danene, and a week ago Sunday I found out that Sharon is not doing so well.  Sharon was unable to come to Danene’s Celebration of Life service because she was recovering from a surgery (the cancer had shown up in her pancreas).  The latest news was that the cancer came back in other areas, the pancreas and now the lungs.  This news has brought back painful memories for me.  Please be praying for Sharon as she starts on a new path of treatment soon.  I don’t know what type of relationship Sharon had with Jesus when all of this started, but I do know, and she has shared with other family members, that whatever the outcome she is secure in her future with Jesus.  I pray that through her fight others may come to know Jesus just as people have come to know Christ through Danene’s fight.

Everywhere I went this past week I had reminders of my wife; a card she wrote, a picture of her in my office, and note in my lunchbox.  After receiving the news of Sharon, I hurt.  Last Saturday night I wanted to do more writing, but I felt that I needed to spend time with Zac, which was good for both of us.  I went to bed at 12:00 after falling asleep in the recliner; I was awakened by a dream of Danene.  She looked so good; she was whole, healthy, and had a smile that could light up a room.  For those of you who knew her, you know that to be true. I asked Danene a question, “What are you doing here?”  She answered, “I have been given a second chance on life, and I will tell you more about it later.”  With that Danene smiled, and then I woke up.  I was troubled by this dream and for the next two hours I was awake in bed, thinking about what all this meant.  As I listened to her IPod, I thought about the dream.  While I’m not Joseph from the Bible (Genesis 37, and that’s what Pastor Larry spoke about this Sunday morning), I do have an interpretation of the dream.  Let me tell you more details about this dream.

I was driving a truck up a road, and it was raining to the point that I couldn’t see the pavement.  It was dark and then light, then the rain stopped.  The next thing I know, I was driving off road into the mountains, bouncing over rocks and boulders and plowing through the mud. Then I came to a stop, with wrecks and crashed vehicles everywhere.  I got out of the truck and walked to the top of the hill. I heard worship music and there were people all around; it looked like a church picnic, but it was not an ordinary church gathering; it was God’s Church and this scene could be in Heaven.  That’s when I saw Danene.  We walked for just a little while (not saying anything), sat down, and were singing the worship song when I asked her my question.   She gave me a smile and answered, and then pointed to God, the one we were there for.   It was as if Danene wanted me to keep my eyes on God.   So here goes the interpretation of the dream.

The drive and road travelled is the journey we call life.  We travel this path alone, with rain, sunshine, wrecks, crashes, rocks, and mud (and yes, we do get dirty) and then we walk to the top of the hill. Danene has traveled this road.  The second chance in life is this; that we have a chance of Everlasting Life, but only when we have a relationship with the Living God and His Son Jesus Christ.  But we need to be focused on Jesus.  If we make this relationship the priority we don’t need to travel this road alone.  Jesus is there to guide us and direct our path if we allow him. Please don’t lose sight of the prize which is eternity with Jesus in Heaven.  Remember the Scripture I referenced in my last blog, Matthew 6:33; don’t just seek Jesus first, but seek HIS RIGHTOUSNESS, also.  Then read the promise in verse 34.

Join me in the journey of life and be focused on Jesus, and you too will see your loved ones that have gone before you.  I know that I will get to see Danene someday and until that day comes, as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.

There are two songs that I have listened to a number of times.  The first one is Matthew West’s, “Save a Place for Me”.   The song that helped put these thoughts together this morning is by Mercy Me, “Homesick”.   Please take the time to listen to the words of these songs that help me get through this journey called life.  

You will hear from me soon with other blogs as God directs me because life is not about me, it’s about God.

Danene’s partner in life, Matt.